2010 year...

Just to refresh all my memories before I forget all, this year has been a pretty good year for me..

Went to Japan on Feb for Valentine's gift as well as 2009 Xmas gift.

Found a very sampat cousin sister Kimberly, and I am glad that I am bonded with my other relatives, thanks to her. Had the first trip with babybun to Singapore, our very first road trip together.. Spent my Summer in Zurich, Switzerland. A good 10 days summer holiday. Went to Copenhagen as well as Sweden for charity work, as well as Spring holiday.

Found a super good job, and my dream job as a PA in a very good company but decided to give up, because here I am in Copenhagen living with my love one.. I can't apply for the visa to stay here in Denmark, therefore I have no choice but to return home and look for a new job. Well, at least some of my wishes came true:-

To have someone special - Yes, I am officially attached to Mr.B. I never thought I could have a long relationship. Afterall most of my relationship lasted less than 3 months.. :P
To see white Christmas - I was so upset last year that I didnt get to see white christmas, but it came this year..
To travel to Tokyo,Japan and stay in expensive hotel :P Well I was just wishing because I know I can never afford that.. Didn't expect it to happen tho..
To travel to Europe - Never would have come across my mind I would have gone to few countries in europe such as Switzerland, Denmark, Sweden, Germany... 
To attend Sensation White - So coincidence it happen in Copenhagen :))
To own 1 LV bag - Thanks to my baby who knew I wanted it so much.
To work as a PA - I thought I can never be a PA because I don't have a certificate in Secretarial.
To travel on A380 and with Singapore Airline. Again, I was just wishing afterall... Never knew it would happen...

Base on my wishes, I guess I am materialistic, but hey it was just a dream, didn't know miracle would happen. To be honest, I've never paid anything for any above mentioned because I KNOW I CAN'T afford any. So I guess miracle happens afterall :P. I thank God everyday, ok most of the days, for everything that I have, or prayer items that he has answered. And I never once take things for granted...I know I've not gone to a church for a very long time now.. Not even Sunday service, but everytime I have an opportunity, I would sit down quietly and pray to God. Of course there are bad things that happen to me too.

I had 4 stitches on my finger - it was the first time I got stitches on me.
I bang into someone - fainted while driving due to severe period pain.
I am diagnose with Dysmenorrhea. Read here for more info.  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dysmenorrhea 
Found out that I got skin disease Keratosis Pilaris (KP) - it's getting worst on my arms because my skin are not used to the cold and dry weather.
Got into an accident with Mr.B - All good now
Got retrenched from my ex company - Lucky to have my US friend who's a very capable attorney to fight for my compensation =)

So yea basically it was an up and down year for me. But I would say a very good year overall. Now for my 2011 year, I just hope that I would get a normal job with good pay, because I am coming back to Denmark on May for summer and I wonder which company would hire someone who travels so often and needs to take leave that much. Ok, Let me list down my 2011 resolution.

To get a normal job with good pay
To be able to be with him forever :P
To have a good health
Mr.B to be safe always, no more accidents for him.
To have a good life with him
To go Paris with him.
To be able to pick up my Danish language asap for the visa application.
To get a house in Malaysia before I leave.
To pay up whatever debt I have in Malaysia. Study loan, car loan etc. :(

When I was 15 I always tell my mum that I would leave Malaysia before I turn 25 because I dislike Malaysia so much. Guess it's coming true somehow. :P I can only apply for the spouse visa when I turn 23½. Don't ask why, it's the regulation here. So yea... Very annoying indeed.

Hmm, before I forget, I better blog it down what he has done for me. Paid for my flight tickets to come here, my trip to Germany, 2 months of my car installment, LV bag, my 3 months expenses in Denmark, and everywhere I go, gifts to take home. And lots more. That is why I hope I would get a good job, and then come here, live with him and treat him good. Undeniable I love him much now that I feel so sad to leave him and head home.. ARgh. But at the same time my bestie is leaving me behind. She's going to Melb on Feb 8 and not coming back to Msia anymore. If we want to visit each other, we would have to take a flight from Copenhagen to Frankfurt, or Dubai or Singapore, then to Malaysia, then to Australia. CPH to KL needs at least 13 hours with transit plus minus would be a total of 16 hours, and then another 8 hours to Australia, total of 1 day travel just to see each other. Sigh, we are staying 10 mins away only and soon it will be 10,000Km away.. :( Anyway it's the best for the both of us, so yea.. :(

Ok finish now heading to bed, and to whoever who reads my blog, Happy New Year and may all your wishes come true.. Take care and have a good 2011 year ahead.. :)

XOXO

Today is the 1st Sunday of Christmas..

Guess it has been sometimes since I last updated my blog. I realize I no longer get addicted to blogging. Well, maybe part of me feels like it's pointless, or perhaps there wasn't anyone reading afterall. And today at 6.10am, I felt like blogging again...

Many things has happened to me within this year..Like I've found a very good job after being retrenched from Westan Australia. I got my dream job as a PA in a company name TopEdge. They are an event company and also the sister company for Berjaya, TT group and so on.. But at the same time, I went to Denmark for holiday cum charity purpose on August and found my dream man.. And therefore, I had to let go of my job after working there for a month. It was probably another exciting yet nice company I've got, people are nice.. Especially my bosses.. Being a PA straight to MD is so much fun.. All you need to do is attend to your MD and thats it.

But again, I felt like I've made the right move..Giving up my dream job to be with my dream man..

So yea, I am currently in Copenhagen, fulfilling one of my dream, to see White Christmas.. It's just so beautiful to see snow, it made me tears at times.. It's not like my first time seeing snow, but it's the first time I am spending my Christmas with someone special. The snows here are so fine yet it falls heavily that it is so thick right now it's reaching my knee if I walk on the street. They do clean and swipe of the snow with big truck but it never seems to work cos it's snowing so badly here.. And of course it's cold..

I'm here for almost 2 months already, and undeniable at times I missed home like mad and I feel like taking the next flight home, especially when I have any arguments, ok not arguments, more like Im being upset at him, then I would have the urge to just barge out from the house and run away. Well, only for 5 minutes. :P That's because I don't have friends here, and also it is a drastic change in my life. People here speaks Danish all the time, which God knows when will I understand. Sometimes, things are pretty hard on my side as I can't get a visa until im 24 years old, one of the Danish rules. And of course I need to speak Danish as well. Argh. So I'm heading home after Christmas, and being jobless again. Aih.. No good.

I have soo many things to type in here but I don't know where to start.. Perhaps I should cut things short. So basically, I made my boo tears yesterday and I felt so bad, and for the first time I feel he truly loves me. Undeniable I was having doubts at first. Money is an issue to me currently as I am jobless and 100% depending on Brian.. Which is no good. So to my friends and family, stop asking me to get stuff from Brian, he's not my water fish. He's someone I truly adore and it is not easy money.He's already paying for my car RM1k per month and Im not even driving them. And still sometimes I am being grumpy of him not pampering me enough. Why can't I be satisfied with things.. Oh Lord..

On top of all that, I am very glad and happy that I've made the right choice and decision by coming to Denmark.. Thanks baby for everything, especially fulfilling my dream to see white Christmas..

So this year I've already been to Japan, Switzerland, Denmark, Sweden, Germany. Then back to Denmark. Next wish to fulfill is going to Hong Kong, then Paris.. :)

I can now start blogging again as I have no other things to hide. To be honest, I had a very wild year of 2010 and I guess it was an experience afterall. I also no longer love a person whom I shouldn't fall in love with at the very first place. Thanks to my baby who made me realize I was putting on some hope towards something I shouldn't hold on to.. :P

In Denmark Xmas is a big celebration, so today I am getting a present. :) Instead of 24 mini gifts, I have bigger gifts on every Sunday until the 4th sunday before Christmas. That's how the Danish do it. So I'm doing it their way too. Hehe

Oh did I mentioned that I went to Sensation White Copenhagen 2010? Yea it cost DKK560 per person, which is approx RM350 just for entrance. It was a GREAT party.. :) Except for the cold part where everyone walks with skirt, tank top, tube dress, white in town without coat and with 5 degree and windy, trust me you will FREEZE! Especially for Asian..

I hope this relationship will last long. It's my very first boyfriend I ever made an annoucement to everyone in FB. Something I am looking forward to hold on to is him.. :)

Ok enough with all the bragging, I miss everyone back at home so much.. And of course the FOOD! and Mel.. and not to forget my dog, Latte.. and also at the same time, I would like to say I <3 you baby... Hehe.. I'll be back next time for more interesting blog. Aiya afterall, people who reads my blog are mostly on my Facebook friendlist.

Take care everyone and I'll be back soon :))

Two holiday

This year I went to Japan on Feb for a week and Switzerland for 10 days. Japan trip was awful but the Switz trip was wonderful.

Well I dont understand some things. I went for holiday to chill myself up, ended up coming back to KL with more troubles, guys are jealous, mad and angry at me. For fuck sake, I am no body to u guys. NOBODY, you guys didnt claim that you like me and u wana see me more. All u guys have in mind is that she's nice, she's good on bed, she offers good blowjob and that you want to keep her as your fuck buddy. HELLO nothing comes free in this world. And I dont fall into that categories. I don't fuck around just to get things or what. If you guys show no sign of wanting me to be in a relationship with you OBVIOUSLY I move on. C'mon which human is so stupid not to do that. Maybe some fugly lame chick or desperate asian who wants the caucasian so badly. BUT HELL NOT ME. For goodness sake, grow up and be a man. If I don't question ur personal life, never get mad at you guys dating others, why should you?

AND to remind you guys, I am NOT YOUR GIRLFRIEND, and NO STRING ATTACH friend. Okay maybe not even friend. Some I've only met twice. Some only once.. Some haven even met .. Like what is wrong with all this guys so obsessive. And bossy..It just gets up my nerves.. EEEEEeee!!

Learn to be like a gentlemen like my swiss friend. He's friendly, nice, TLC, good, not that good looking but a man who is good enough to simply win ur heart. He's generous, smart, knows what to do. He's the kind of man where you will be friends with forever..
And he said something funny when he sent me to the Zurich Airport.. If your friend needs reference give them my contact and I'l give you a good testimonial. in my 10 days there, he mentioned a couple of time saying im the nicest girl he knew, fun to be with, no worries, no stress, not clingy, intelligent, and which ever man who marries me is very lucky.. See why cant all end up such good ending.. Happy smile with compliments. And trust me, not to say I am being vain or what, but I am really nice when the person is nice to me.. I'l treat him like a king but sometimes I'l complain and whine too. But its fun. A Man who knows how to have fun will be very happy with me.. :) That's the fact. But of course all this doesn't involve LOVE. If LOVE were to mix up with all this, then it will be dangerous.. Unless you get to know each other better before deciding to move in together and stay..

Because of someone who spent RM6k on me for my second meeting with him, the man all thinks that this is too much for me, just because they simply can't afford or not willing to fork out the money for me. MY swiss friend told me the money was way more worth than what I gave him. I gave him the sweetest and the most relaxing week ever he can have with a girl he barely knew for 10 days. And now we are close friends. See how nice is that, if someone who's willing to spend that amount of money on me and can say things that its worth it and he wouldn't mind seeing me again. That shows i'm a nice person but I just don't geddit those guys out there. Are you jealous because you are not wiling to pay? or are u jealouse because the man spent so much? And i treated him so nice? Well like I said, nothing comes free idiot. Yes i think you guys deserve to be call IDIOT.

Please get rid of my life thanks. I want my Zurich trip to stay wonderful and not you guys ruining the memories of me going there. No harm done and no one gets hurt. Please get a life thanks.

Because I still love you more than I can say..

"I knew that although I told myself and everyone that I've fully let go off you, I've never.. For this eight months, I keep on looking back, right back to the start where we knew each other, wondering what it was that made us changed...
I tried so hard to let go off you, and tried my best to draw a line, but still the questions keep on coming in my mind...What if I've never let you go..would you still be the man I used to know?"
guess it's easy to say but its not easy to do... Forgetting someone you truly love and letting them go is the hardest thing to do in life...

Guess the day I stop loving you is the day I stop breathing....
Cos I still love you more than I can say...

Each time when I finally let go of you, you came into my life again, giving me false hope, the hope to be with you that won't happen. Even if it does, it only leads us to no where but pain.. But why... Why must you give me hope each time? Or it's just me who's being sensitive and you're just treating me as your best friend... Please darling, don't do this to me, it hurts alot to know the fact that I love you but there's nothing I can do.. Sleeping beside you watching you sleeping in another person's hug hurts me deeply..

If only I could be like you, taking things so easily in life and everything in life as easy as you can then perhaps things wouldn't be that complicated.. I've never regretted falling for you, infact, it was the happiest thing that happen in my life.. Yet, I never once thought I'l be mentally tortured.. When I look at all your ex and the way you treated them, I'm afraid..Afraid of being treated like that from you.. I know they love you as much as I do.. Maybe more..

I'm really afraid of falling for you again and again and again... I just can't love you as a friend. I just can't.... Yet I can't cut contact with you as I don't wish to lose a best buddy like you. I knew you've never once prayed that I've never left your side.. I did..I did all I could to show you my love for you, but guess things just didn't turn out well.. I thank you for all the moments that we had all this while..the happy moments, the sad moments.. the tough time we had gone through, the crying moments..I know somehow you love me... I can't go on another vacation with you..I'm sorry.. I just don't want to ruin our friendship again.. Enjoy your holiday...and thanks for inviting me to come along...

Love you...

First week of New Year

Let's see what I've got or done so far for the first week of New Year. First day to work, i was on MC, due to swollen tonsils, so no good. Then I got rejected for US visa which means I can't go for holiday, no good as well.

Then I came to work i flooded job, which equals to worst. So conclusion, first week of new year is bad for me. Anyway I'l be heading to Penang tomorrow with my ex work mates. Dr.Lee is getting married on Sat and of course, I am invited. Whee.

Ok leaving office now. bye. Oh ya now it's daylight saving so I finish work at 3.30pm. Whee. Heading home now n get ready for some shopping before I go Penang. :)

Xoxo